I was so happy when I fell in love with a girl who loves me as well. Every afternoon, we would sit on a bench. I would embrace her real tight and kiss her on the cheeks. I always tell her all the time that I love her so much. And unknown to her, every time I say those words, deep in my mind I want her to be my wife. I imagined myself being with her until my hair turns grey.

We have always shared our deepest dreams and future plans. I know she is the one I'm looking for. She always seemed to be my guiding light whenever I feel lost. And, she taught me to be a pious believer in God. She was my inspiration, my soul and my crying shoulder whenever my world is splashed with frustrations and agonies.

But something bothered me, a question that made me feel I am not the one she's waiting for. Why she can't look at me in the eye. She seemed so embarrassed to even stare at me directly. I understand that she’s a very shy girl but we’ve been together for so long now. But until now, she keeps on hiding her face with her beautiful long hair. It’s like I still don’t know her completely. As her man, I ignored that behavior of hers. But I can barely take it anymore. Why is she always like that? It hurts. It’s as if she doesn’t like me.

Should I continue this, I am true to myself and I am hoping that she is also true to me. I don't want to pretend. If we don’t feel the same way, we should just stop this nonsense, right? Sometimes this question lingers in my mind. Does she really love me or I am just a fling to her. Now, tell me "Should I continue this?".

SHE ^^,

She entered our room of silence
And strained out tones of violence
She bid on us her friendliness
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